♡ 14th ♡

5th July 2013
is another date
to remember
Happy 14th Monthsary
to my lovely
Eyman Rafeeq Bin Ahmad Raziff ♡

we have been here
for so many times but
i still dont know
what to tell you
i am completely speechless
my mouth is zipped
words are hovering in my mind
yet i couldnt find
the exact, appropriate words
for you

you said "im tired"
"im done"
"let me go"
but i reluctant
to get this over
no, not now
or never

i know i am so
c o m p l i c a t e d
im clingy
im too sensitive
im stubborn
im fussy
im really sorry :(
i dont wanna
repeat my same mistake
again and again
i know you have
experienced excessive
amount of
excruciating pain
i am deeply sorry
i dont wanna lose you again :(

thank you for;
your love and care
always being there for me
staying, no matter what
understanding me well
treating me as your princess
the good times
cheering me up, always
being my strength when i was at my lowest
your sacrifices
being my bestfriend
helping me in my studies
your advices
the happiness you brought
the littlest thing youve done

words will never ever be enough
how thankful and
blessed i am
to have you
here, in my life
after all
thank you very much
for everything, sayang
cant deny that
you are the best!

i know there is
a long, long way
waiting for us
guess im all ready
i love you, sayang
i love you real loads.

♡ Happy 14th Monthsary, Eyman Rafeeq Ahmad Raziff ♡


im sorry. x

im sorry
i made you cry

im sorry
i hurt you
again and again

im sorry
im such a
piece of
motherfucking shit

im sorry
im such a
bad companion

im sorry
for saying
i love you
but i keep
hurting you

im sorry
im too stubborn
i dont even want to
let you go

im sorry
i always ruin

im sorry
for bending your
precious soul

im sorry
you dont deserve
to be treated
like this
this bad

im sorry
that i dont
want to walk away

im sorry
im too much
in love with you

im sorry
for always making
you feel bad

im sorry
because i failed to
make you smile today

im sorry
that you have to
go through all
these shits
with me

im sorry
for being so
too complicated

im sorry
for not cutting down
my ego
my fucking ego

im sorry
im messing up
your mind

im sorry
for everything
i have done
none of them were
my actual plan
my only plan was
to make you
the happiest guy alive
was, and still

im truly sorry
i love you
so much.